This was the first week of my attempt to start accomplishing the goals I set up for myself for 2018. I just came back from Asia – that’s where I spent the last two weeks of 2017.
This week was used to clean things up and re-organize things around (at home, my schedule, finance, health, and career).
I started journaling to document what I wanted to accomplish this year. These goals may change over time – I may keep some of them and abandon the others. Why? I don’t wanna stress myself out from accomplishing something that would lead me to fail. I’m only going to focus on something I can be successful at, however small that goal is. Most people have New Year’s Resolution. I don’t have a “New Year’s Resolution” per se but I have a list of things I wanna accomplish.
To set myself up to succeed, I only have 2 habits I wanna incorporate into my daily routine:
Meditate
I’ve been thinking a lot lately about quitting my job. I know for sure I don’t want to stay because of the way it is run. Is that something I can change? Maybe. But chances are- I can’t, I don’t own the company. There were several attempts to propose a change but it was ignored. Perhaps I wasn’t convincing enough or my boss did not clearly understand what I was trying to communicate to him. After all, they weren’t communicated verbally, they were communicated through action (which makes it a lot harder to understand).
My decision to leave the company is not what’s making this thing stressful. It’s actually having the conversation with my boss about my departure. It pains me to complain about how the company is run and it pains me that I’m leaving them because I care used to care but I don’t care anymore due to the lack of teamwork.
I couldn’t see the future of the company with us running it. Why not? We have different goals. We don’t trust each other’s skills and knowledge. We are not working as a team. I can only put up with so many bs.
I talked to others about this (about me quitting again) but most of them are not in favor (and I understand why). And that’s why I wanted to meditate – to help me get that clarity I needed.
I only see two things that could happen: stay and make it work OR leave and have a more comfortable job.
Both options offer a set of advantages and disadvantages. What makes this hard is that there is no right or wrong answer. It’s a question of choice. If there was a more important question to ask, it would be this: Will this choice take me closer to my goal? Or away from it?
I meditated for 10 minutes on Wednesday and 5 minutes on Thursday using Sam Harris’ Insight Timer.
I downloaded Calm as well as advised by Tim Ferriss but I only use it for the music – to either help me relax or focus. Yes, I’ve tried to learn how to meditate last year but I wasn’t really successful at adding it to my daily habit.
I haven’t really felt, seen or experienced the benefit of sitting silently with eyes closed for a few minutes. But I’m gonna give this a try again and let you know if I go anywhere with it.
Exercise for 15 Minutes
Exercise sounds a little lame to others. Workout sounds better. But that’s exactly why I’m staying away from calling it a workout:
First, to train my ego not to give a f*ck about others’ opinion.
Second, I’m only doing it for 15-minutes which don’t really qualify as a “workout”. And I’m doing it at home, not in the gym. Why? It saves me time (to drive to the gym, get ready to work out, wait for your turn to use the machines/equipment, freshen up after a workout and drive home) and money (gym membership). That’s why I downloaded an app from Darebee. Why? It’s my most convenient option to do some physical activity at home. And it’s free!
Youtube videos work too. I heard about Anabolic Aliens from my friend’s husband. I tried it once but found it a little too intense for me at the moment. You can call me ‘weak’ for not being able to follow through but I don’t really care…
However, I need to make it clear that I don’t have a problem with the idea of going to the gym. If going to the gym takes you closer to your goal then good for you (who cares about what I think). However, it doesn’t really fit mine so I had to find an alternative.
That’s it. Two habits added to my daily ritual.
What about you? Are you also trying to improve yourself this year? If so, what are you trying to accomplish?
Let me now. I’d love to hear from you 😀