Knowing “what’s up” is irresistible.

The first thing I do as soon as I get up is to check my e-mail (hoping for some good news). Then I check Instagram for any interesting posts. Then I check my Medium stats. What the hell am I looking for?

Finding something interesting to start my day.

But this is a terrible way to start it because if I don’t find anything interesting, it results to like a slight form of depression.

This tells me that I need to regulate the way I use my phone to keep my dopamine levels in check. This drove me to remove Medium on my phone. I find myself consistently checking my stats after a story has been published.

Attention is addicting but I’m not gonna let it control me.

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I read an interesting article about addiction to productivity.

I suppose it’s a thing. And it does make sense because I find it hard to stay still. I feel like I need to be always on the go-go-go, which, is a recipe for burnout. The simple of act of checking your phone (for notifications) while you’re waiting in line is also equivalent to that.

Perhaps I need to start meditating again to help me stay still. Why did I stop meditating anyway? Because I can stay present if needed. Is that an accurate assessment?

Most likely not because the cure for boredom is presence.

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How do you pass your knowledge to others in a short amount of time?

This is the challenge I’m currently facing right now. How do I enable others to do what I do? How can I make my absence the best thing that ever happened to the team I work with and to myself?

I don’t know the answers just yet but I want to start by making others feel like everyone can do what I do.