What's On My Mind?
“How the hell am I gonna pull this off?”
I remember telling my supervisor that I prefer to follow and provide support as opposed to leading.
Then he goes, “I suppose there’s an opportunity for growth”.
When you work for people who’s also into continuous improvement, there is really no bs excuse I can come up with to avoid taking on a challenge.
I know because I do that as well to other people who complain a lot. It’s the “verbal judo” I apply whenever I hear resistance.
This month, I was given the opportunity to lead teams to complete projects (2 projects).
I don’t like to lead because people are complex and I’m blunt and I hate whiners.
I’m more scared of seeing who I am as a leader than the success of our project.
During these moments, the fear of failure surfaces and I have to acknowledge it.
Yup, it’s going to be a shit show but I better make it a good show.
Fail forward.
A Year Ago This Week
- Goals were written for 2019 but it felt like they were THE goals I really wanted to pursue.
- Speaking of leadership, I actively avoided every opportunity to lead a team. I’m not assertive. It’s one of those soft skills I want to develop this year.
- A training/activity I designed was a success.
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Goal Update
Personal Projects
My “Cats in Paris” design was printed on fundraising tickets (aka wedding social tickets). That was cool. Free marketing.
I attended a training session to help me understand the insurance I’m selling. There’s a lot of value in the training – so much so that I wanna attend it again. I’m planning to put more focus on my career in the insurance industry this year, mainly to help me clear out my debts WHILE helping others 😉
Health Routine *yup I’m gonna change things up this year
I worked out 3x this week (240 squats + 120 push-ups in total).
No salad or chili or beef for lunch this week. It’s a streak of “leftovers” and sandwich + soup from the cafeteria.
Instead of reading 3 different books in the morning, I decided to just read one. I also reduced the time of writing in my journal. Why?
I had to block some time for my 10-minute exercise.
The time I can spare to do these things is very limited. I wished I had more time but I need to prioritize.
Finance
Family emergencies can gouge your savings but you “gotta do whatchu gotta do”.
Money is replaceable. Can’t do that with time. Time does not care about your current situation.
Call it unfair but that’s just the reality of life.
Material possessions don’t mean much because they can be purchased.
Which is why I prefer to spend my money on experience.
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