Meditation
Meditated. Once. On Friday after work.
Seems like this goal is not something I should keep. I couldn’t find the time to do it.
Perhaps I should change the goal to ‘Finding A Consistent Time To Meditate’.
Exercise for 15-minutes
Same deal. No exercise this week.
What’s my excuse? No time for it. Same excuse everyone uses “I’m busy”.
But busy is not a good excuse.
This is where Debbie Millman’s quote enters my psyche “Busy is a decision”. It forces me to come up with a better approach.
The being said, what can I do about it? Get up 30-mins earlier in the morning.
Annual Review (At Work)
I really thought I was going to get fired last Wednesday. The fear and worry drained my energy to create those habits I mentioned above. Why was I going to get fired? I was caught napping. I snored so loud that it reached my boss’s office.
Just kidding. My annual review was up and I had to confess to my boss that I don’t plan on staying with the company. If he fires me on the spot then I will respectfully accept it. If not, then well, I can stay with his company, get paid, until I found another company to work for.
I was in a dilemma:
Should I tell him now and get fired? (I just wanna get this done and over with so I can start moving on).
Or should I wait until I get a job offer and give him 2-weeks to find me a replacement? (No one else in his company knows what I do and how I do it).
The answer to both of those questions will (logically speaking) result in a negative reaction. Regardless of how you look at it, I’m leaving and there is no negotiating. The decision is final. My intention is to approach the situation with the least damage to the company. What did I do?
I consulted with almighty Youtube for career advice. I found one from Gary Vaynerchuk:
I thought about keeping quiet. But my moral compass slapped the shit out of me, to tell the truth. And I did.
The result? Shocking. I didn’t get fired. My boss understood my decision. He said he had a feeling I was going to leave the company eventually. He also admitted he was in my position before. He was nervous about telling his boss about his plan to quit for the exact same reasons: get fired AND if things don’t work out with his new employer, he could end up with nothing.
He is probably the nicest boss I’m ever going to come across in my entire career – very supportive of my career goals.
Anyway, now that I got that out of my system (been carrying it since last November) I feel…‘lighter’. It freed up some space in my head I could then use to focus on other things.
Honesty can go a long way BUT assess the situation very very carefully before making a decision. There are no black and white answers to every question in the world. Sometimes you may need to take the risk of failing (or feeling pain) to allow you to realize there is no right or wrong answer/solution to a question/situation. Question is: Are you brave enough to take that risk?
