I decided to double down on writing stories for this month…and sharing them on social platforms.

This means that I’m gonna temporarily stop submitting articles to publications, which, means, my earnings on Medium are going to take a hit. I sometimes wonder what motivates me more to write. Is it the pocket-change earnings? Is it for the love of the art? Or is it to upgrade my skills?

These are things I need to reflect on this month.

Medium—the platform I’m currently focusing on is making changes again…

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I’m reminded to set up an appointment for a general check-up.

One afternoon, this week, for some reason, I felt super hot. My ears were red, and my body felt itchy (that itch you feel when you’re about to break a sweat on the treadmill). Told Reyvi about it and she’s thinking that it could be a sign of high blood pressure–the kind that could lead to a stroke…wtf?

Now, she’s not saying I’m about to get a stroke. But it was her way of getting me to focus on my health.

That said, I’m going to book a general check-up next week.

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I got up late a few times this week (6 AM).

Whenever that happens, I feel like I wasted time that I could’ve used to write, read, work out or any other activity that could’ve made me a better version of myself. Now, I’m NOT saying I’m dedicated to personal development. But there is this knee-jerk reaction that makes me wanna react that way.

It’s not healthy because I’m creating some phantom pressure within me.

My guess is that it’s driven by what we experience in school—all the way to being an employee: there are almost always tight deadlines you need to meet. Can’t waste time, otherwise, you’re gonna fall behind and get fired.