The books I ordered came. I got them for free–for filling out a survey.

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I keep hearing Dora the Explorer songs in my head.

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My responsibilities at work are shifting.

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I put most of my side projects on hold. I just don’t feel like working on them. The excitement is not there. However, I try to push through and put some work here and there to tell myself I’m not abandoning it.

I’m almost done with this new article on how to avoid being on the “to-be-laid-off” list.

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Still mourning…I think? But the fact that I can’t tell tells me that I’m almost done dealing with my own emotions about my grandma’s passing. 

Every day, since I heard the news, I ask myself: “Am I ready to write that letter?”

I talk about the letter that tells her exactly what I feel towards everything I feel for her. That was a good idea from Jocko from Week 46.  It complements the way I deal with my own emotions: I write what I feel on paper.

However, blogging about this online makes me feel like I’m romanticizing my mourning. I prohibit myself from doing that. This explains why I prefer to stay silent about it…in public.