Week 8

“Get a hold of yourself!”

I missed some of my deadlines at work, not once but twice.

That’s unacceptable. My supervisor was not happy.

My excuse? I did not have a full definition of the task. The deadline that was written was either unclear or it wasn’t written. In short, I was blind.

And when you’re blind, how the hell are you even going to react or navigate your way through?

You proceed with caution, take your time, stretch your arms out as you move forward and hope you’d feel or hit something you should be avoiding. In short, I guessed and hoped for the best – a risky move.

But what didn’t dawn on me until today was that I needed to take full responsibility for my inability to address the blind spot in my process.

I can figure out those deadlines. But since I have an overwhelming to-do-list and I didn’t wanna add more menial tasks to it, I relied on others to fill that gap for me.

But the others either did not know they should provide this info or perhaps, they themselves (like me) don’t wanna add more menial tasks to their also overwhelming to-do-list.

I already overwhelmed with stuff to do. Arguing who should provide what is not going to help reduce that list, it just adds more to it.

So f*ck it – I’m taking full responsibility.