What's On My Mind
“How the hell am I going to catch up?!”
Now that we cannot work overtime and that we are only allowed to work 4x a week, I’m having a tough time meeting my deadlines.
It’s not like we are expected to work at a much faster speed (because we will now try to accomplish what is typically done in 5 days into 4 days).
But the fact that we are missing our deadlines leave a slight damage to our image as someone who finishes their tasks on time.
That image of ourselves matter more these days due to the shutdowns and layoffs.
We now put more value to our current job because we know there’s a number of people out there who are desperate and are willing to give more to be in your position.
And so we do more for free.
And we are perfectly OK with that.
Those 3 sick days I’ve taken 2 weeks ago is still taking a toll on me because I lost 24-hrs to work on my projects.
Working at home definitely helps as I’m able to sneak in some work during my day-offs. However, I do not intend to this all the time. There’s this critical balance between life and work. Doing more of the other means could mean losing both.
Working more will make you more valuable at work, but you lose value to your family. You lose your family, you lose the reason why you’re working hard in the first place.
Spending way more time with your family could rob you some time from work. Then your value at work suffers. Losing your job will disable you from giving your family the life you wanted for them.
Having said all that, me, sneaking in some work is only temporary.
And I’m going to be pretty strict about that.
But why is it that I itch to work even when I don’t need to? It’s not like I’m getting paid extra? Here’s my theory…
We were programmed since we were kids in school to finish the tasks or homework given to us. Failure to do will result in “poor” performance.
Now, no one wants to be viewed as a “poor” performer at something. It can devalue our integrity as a person or in this case, an employee.
Most of us value our integrity, so much so that we do everything we can to preserve that.
This must be why it’s less painful to do extra work on the side for FREE as opposed to looking like someone who couldn’t finish their tasks on time EVEN THOUGH everyone understands why you cannot finish them in the first place.
A Year Ago This Week
- My fiancee was pregnant with Lexi
- I shied away from attention (at work)
- I’m adjusting the same way I’m adjusting today.
- It doesn’t seem like we’ve made adjustments to our grocery budget even during the pandemic. I’m still spending about $250/week *smh*
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Weekly Update
Personal Projects
I’m still adjusting to the “work at home” thing.
The room I use where my desktop computer is situated needs to be re-organized.
I wouldn’t even call it an office. It’s more like a stock room.
I can still work and I’m ok with it. But if I can change things up a bit, maybe just maybe I’ll be more productive.
Routine
This is still in progress.
Reyvi and I went out for a run early in the morning one of these days, hoping we can create a routine out of that as a step to a healthier lifestyle.
But the weather is just too cold to make the morning run enjoyable.
Plus, I’ve been hearing about this new regulation in regards to keeping your distance from your partner. Otherwise, you can get fined. What the hell happened to the world?
Note: I did not bother finding out more or looking further into it. So anything I say is pure assumption.
But I totally get it. Now is not the time to complain. Now is the time to follow the direction we’ve been given to finally put an end to this pandemic. The more we disobey (or not take the directions more seriously) the longer this whole thing will last.
Finance
My income is going to be less than the usual anytime soon.
This means readjusting the way we spend money EVEN THOUGH all I’m really spending on is grocery and Lexi’s needs.
“The extra-unpaid-day-off I get every week will be used to get my career going in the insurance industry.” <<< I’ve been saying that for a while now but I haven’t really taken action. I keep putting off due to other more important things that I really value: taking care of Lexi and work.
I wanted to change that this coming week. Especially now that Lexi is back to normal.
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